It's not hard to not eat. When all I think about all day long is how I'm going to manage eating enough calories just to maintain on a deficit day, it's not hard to not eat. Today, I made myself sick just eating a bowl of veggies and beef broth. I almost had to go purge, but I stopped myself knowing it's good calories.
I didn't get to work out today. I usually walk my dogs and do HIIT, but today was just jam packed. I didn't even get to dance, cause I have work so early tomorrow.. I had to wind down early.
Decided to add on another fast day. I just can't risk starting to gain back weight at this crucial time. This fast day is on Thursdays, so it's not used to make up for a binge/purge, just to fast. I'm also extending my overnight fasts on deficit days all the way until I get off work, which is usually no later than 2pm. Earliest I eat is noon. This doesn't make sense to some Anas who think breakfast and lots of tiny meals is important, but working on a completely empty stomach is so vital for me. I've read that it actually doesn't affect your metabolism to have one meal vs. several small meals. As long as I stop eating before 6 or 7pm, I'm good. My food is digested by the time I go to sleep. And I end up eating a LOT less the longer I put off having my first meal.
Anyway, I'm freaking out a little. I'm stuck at the same weight. Of course, it has only been a day. So. I guess I should chill. I weigh myself just about every time I enter the fucking bathroom.
I will be thin.
Miana will help me.
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